His Legacy of Love

All too familiar with this verse in John 15 where Jesus reminds us that He is the vine and we are the branches. And I believe it is important that we remind ourselves to BE the branch that is dependant on the VINE. How do others see us? The fruits. The grapes. The goodness of the wine produced from the grapes. And maybe, just maybe, sometimes we allow our perspectives to be focused on how good the fruit is, how juicy the grapes are and how sweet the wine is to determine if we are a good branch.  In many aspect, I find it easy to lean on the Lord and draw from the Vine, yet there are some areas that I have seemingly misunderstood how to be the branch. While it isn't my goal in life to look extremely gorgeous or be slim and slender, cannot help but find myself affected by how stout I may appear to be. Yes I know the Lord looks at the heart, and not the outward appearance (1 Samuel 16:7), but I am interested to find out how do I really look in the eyes of Jesus.  Beauty. Confiden...

Christmas Eve 2018, I met a mutual lady friend while celebrating Christmas Eve at one of my ex-colleague turned friend's place. Didn't know that the Lord has so much planned out for us. Before meeting her, my ex-colleague turned friend (thereafter known as Mr H) did share with me a little background that she is going through a really tough time in her life and wanted to see if I can talk her through (if there was favour) and maybe lead her to a community and support in Church.  When Mr H sent us home after the dinner, I felt led to ask her for her phone number. Wonder how it would be if I didn't. So I asked her out for a meal a few times before she reluctantly said yes. And it was because she was concerned she would have nothing to say if she met me because she was going through a down time in life. She had met a guy who wasn't able to commit or give her the happiness she wanted. Yet she found it hard to leave. She went through an extended time of that before she finall...

A beautiful Saturday. A little different from how it would usually start (with tutoring) and now that the Primary School exams are done, so it means a short break before the new academic year starts again!!! Decided to take time to pen down some thoughts that surfaced from a show that I've been recently "hooked" on and hoping to gradually transition to not being held onto by this obsession. And it's none other than.... "Call Me By Fire" also known as 《披荆斩棘的哥哥》- basically it is a Chinese variety show where they bring together male celebrities from the entertainment industry and compete to eventually form a 17 member performer group. I am generally not a big fan of music shows - maybe just cause I'm not very musically inclined and as such, it isn't quite in me to appreciate music that in depth. So initially I wasn't very interested to even start watching the show. Not sure how I started but then I realise that the difference was the brotherhood tha...

21 more hours to the 2nd time I'll be taking Paper 2 of the RES Exam. Honestly. Unprepared. And so many thoughts in me seems to agree and be in sync of how I really don't deserve to pass tomorrow's paper. The first round of preparation, I really gave it my best, constantly revising and trusting the Lord. This time round, I hardly brought myself to sit down to revise and I'm barely ready. And all I can do is pray. And yet I feel so unqualified (because I didn't study) to even come to God's throne to ask for His grace and His help. What if I fail again? Where is this all going to lead me.  And yes I can continue to let those thoughts torture me and distract me away from focusing on the ONE thing - His grace. His grace that will always be sufficient for me. The only thing I know now is that I cannot be focused on the results that will come, I will focus on the grace to complete all that I feel God is leading me to know and study.  Christ is become of no effect unto...

One of those days where I took the day off again because I have leaves to clear. And ever since we aren't really free to travel abroad much these days, it's been a struggle sometimes to find ways to spend the day in Singapore. But surely, everyday spent with God is not a wasted day!  Decided to sign myself up for a Barre class at one of my favourite Barre studios in Singapore! So much for taking the day off but awaking at a time earlier than my work days even 😂. So here we go, 9.30am Barre class. During the class, one of the segments where we were working on our arms, we were doing variations of push ups, as the instructor was correcting my form, she also mentioned "trust the hands", as if to say that our hands are stronger than we think it is, and that got me thinking, how about trusting God's hands more! BAM! As ordinary as the day could have been, I love it when God doesn't miss the opportunity to speak His love language into my life, knowing I seem to kno...

There are many thoughts running through my head and I guess I just needed a channel to organise all those thoughts and to bring them to a hiding place.  Yes, a hiding place.  Not so much that I needed hiding, but I knew I needed to bring it to a safe space, my refuge and strength, Lord Jesus Christ. So I have been tutoring my 11 year-old cousin for about a year now, ever since his parent's business was affected and financially it would have been strenuous to continue to support his tuition fees. That's when I suggested to tutor him without monetary consideration. Stepping in voluntarily started well at first. But recently it started to take a toil on me, and I didn't realise how it subtly affected my relationship with my loved ones. I'm not sure if I can really put to words what resulted in the toiling, was it because I'm not seeing fruits for the seed sown (his results kept fluctuating and there doesn't seem to be much effort from his end), or was it because I ...